I am stressed. Some thoughts running through my head...

I want to move., but can we afford it?
Was the retreat fun?
WhyI am scared to live?
Will I do this for the rest of my life?
Why don't people call?
Will I ever be done with SAM testing?
Am I a good wife?
When should we have Kids?
What are people thinking about me?
Can I loose this weight?
Is God happy with me?
Do I call home too much?
Will I ever become a youth pastor?
Does Chad's parents really like me?


Too much on my mind

Sometimes I feel like crying..but not because I'm sad

Lately I have had urges to cry. Like when I see someone randomly helping another person, or when I think about all the blessings in my life. Or even when my family is all together. I think that I have underestimated a lot in my life. Like the importance of family and spending time with them. Its a depressing thought but you don't know how much longer you have with your family and friends. I don't want to waste another minute of life. I see everything that I still want to do , and I have barley started yet. Every day I have been blessed with God. My family, friends, Job, church, even just having another day. I pray that God can help me remember to live my life for him and to the fullest. I think it would be disappointing if I wasted the only life that God gave me. I want to stop worrying about material things and start loving what I have.